Was my mother a sociopath?

Even having to ask that question is very sad, if she wasn't it means that she was very sick and it prevented her from using her conscience. There were times that I still don't understand how I got to continue in my life. I try to counter act every bit of cruelty that was used against me or when I watched her be mean to others with some type of kindness. When ever I find myself sad or frustrated I try to make a I try to make a point of going out of my way to be nice to somebody. That is the only thing that I could do. I feel so bad when I meet somebody and they are finding life hard because of something unfair of that somebody has done something mean to them. Often this means that they don't have a job, violence or anything else that could of been prevented, I think of my mother and how manipulative she was. I know that I must find a way to do some random kindness it is the only thing to do.
Anger though I have been there will get you nowhere. The challenge is to stay calm and and let your frustration give way to concern for others that are having a hard time for whatever reason.

Two things prompted this discussion. I had a costumer that was unfairly fired. Somebody came in to meet her and explained the awful circumstances and I was able to see that she wasn't healthy. Both those things meant that she was having a hard time at life. I went out of my way not only to give her a great deal like I always do. (I always offer what is suitable and what are the best offers available according to some one's needs and desires). I also told the truth that I thought that she was a very likable person and I meant it. The second thing was I heard on the radio about a woman that lost her mother. She had a massive stroke and died. After that she would cry every month on those days. She found that the best therapy was to dedicate those days to random acts of kindness in her mother's name. Well for different reasons I have been doing the same, just not on particular days. These two thing for some reason means that it is time to get his out of my head and write about it. I believe that the best type of therapy is kindness. It has a way of being infectious. In other words kindness leads to more. Just like meanness leads to more. The only way to stop a trend is to do the opposite and it makes us feel better.
I wish us all a Happy Purim or Chag Semeach